A 2026 Update: My Enrollment into the Princess Training Program

Hisashiburi Min’na-sama!

I’d like to say hello, Happy Thanksgiving, Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, etc. It’s been a while. 

Idomizue has been on an undesired hiatus as I try to manage my job, Japanese class, and life in Japan overall. I’ve taken on several leadership tasks and positions as well and I guess it’s taking me a long while to adjust to the weight of it all. As I go from day to day though I’m always praying that God endows me with supernatural energy to check all the boxes off my multiple to-do lists. 

If you were to ask how it’s going, I would like to say, it’s all progressing smoothly, and according to plan. But the reality is, I’ve been in a slump. It’s like I’m in a weird foggy twilight zombie zone in my heart, mind and soul. Like I have a cloak of heaviness and fatigue that never goes away. I’ve been fighting tooth and nail to get out of it and shake it off. However, if I were to look at the battle from a birds-eye view, I worry that my efforts to fight would be comparable to a ferociously fighting sloth - slow and lackadaisical.

As of this year, I want something different. I want change. So I’ve been asking the LORD to send a new wind! Stir in me the desire to do life and to do it in an exciting and new way! I want joy and a sense of wonder restored to my soul and clear vision within my mind. I want to be able to humbly accept, gracefully walk in, and overcome the challenges and positions the LORD has called me to take on. I want to do it all like a…Beautiful. Elegant. Lady. Like a princess!

In January, I realized that I had more down days than up and I also started to feel a fracture or separation in the relationships around me. All at once, I was being rejected from some circles and witnessing an ugly side of myself in others. I noticed in myself negative thinking, strong sharp tones, becoming easily angered over little things, seeking affirmation from the wrong sources, and bringing a cloud in every room I went into. So, I sought the LORD and I did a heart check. Here’s an unedited excerpt straight from my January 2026 Journal: 

Heart check. Why am I like this?

Pride: 

When I treat others with contempt or hide myself away, I am grieving the holy spirit. 

I do not think well of people. My heart is actually very spiteful. 

I haven't comprehended the full and present love God has given me. 

I haven't fully understood his forgiveness. 

He says those who have been forgiven much, love much. 

I, dear LORD, am like a wicked servant. The servant that cries with joy at my debt being paid and the love you show me yet I turn around and beat others up when they have debt. Or character inefficiencies. 

LORD, you cover my flaws and make me perfect. 

And you do the same for them. 

You've shown me before. You give discernment so I can intercede on other's behalf, not judge and condemn them. 

LORD please. Holy Spirit because I've grieved you, and others, show me the path to make things right. 

As requested, the LORD began working and answering my prayers to highlight my next steps. 

On the second Sunday of this month, February, I went on a trip to Fukuoka Prefecture to participate in an English conference. What was strange, is that at this English teachers’ conference, there was a yoga instructor doing an opening presentation on active listening. I thought he was somewhat out of place, but God spoke directly to me through that man’s presentation. I kid you not.  

In summary, the teacher taught us the context in which we view a person, is how we will treat them. In a conversation, if we view a person as annoying and/or boring, then when communicating with them, we may interact with them negatively (i.e. - giving them a cutting look or a short & cold response) which can create an environment that disempowers and shuts the person down. If we think of someone as a best friend or a person with value, then the communication facilitated between persons can foster an environment that’s more positive and empowering.

A lightbulb turned on in my head and I realized, I am a child of God, yet I’m not walking in the context He sees me in. If I don’t see myself as God sees me, my love and vision becomes limited and I won’t be able to interact well with others and see their full value. I wouldn’t be able to see them as God sees them. 

Readers, if you are not seeing yourself in the context in which God sees you, much like myself, you will miss out on the power of the gospel and the impact of living it out. Having the view of ourselves sourced from God’s thoughts, plans, and heart for us can and will revolutionize how we view and interact in our relationships. 

We must, must, must make the attempt to comprehend, internalize, and receive God’s love for ourselves again and again and again. 

From that day, I have been hiding away and constantly seeking God’s face, morning, noon, and evening to really understand His love for me. I want that love to give me a new mind, a new heart, and a new life! I want it to change me into the elegant lady the LORD intends for me to be! 

As a daughter of the Most High King, who is the eternal and one true God of all creation, I consider myself a real princess. The Princess Training Program, or PTP, is my creative way of saying, I'm intentionally undergoing the journey to seek and understand God’s love for me, so that I can love Him and others as He called me to do. I believe this is a life long pursuit that will look different in different seasons of my life, but for this season, it’s my ticket out of the slump and back into the palace, seated with Christ. 

Dear Father in Heaven,

Thank you for answering my prayer to make things right with you and make things right in the relationships around me. I pray that this testimony blesses others who may also need to journey and understand what your love means for them. Please encounter and bless every reader and allow them to grasp your Truth so that you can revolutionize their lives. Glory and all honor belongs to you, In Jesus' name, Amen.